Age is a funny thing. When I was younger, in elementary school I used to look up at the high schoolers with amazement. They were so independent, I couldn't even reach the top cabinets without jumping on the counter (I still sometimes have to do that). When I was in high school I felt old (crazy right?). I thought I knew everything and had it all together. Yes I was mature for my age (I can say that about myself right?), but I definitely didn't know everything. I made mistakes and dated my fair share of idiots. In college I thought by 25 I'd be ready to get married. I even asked Jeff before we were "dating", that if I'm not married at 25, would he marry me. He said yes, but he has no memory of this conversation. Now that I am 25 I feel old, but now I know that in 10 years, I will look back and say "I was so young". By the way, no plans to get married this minute, but I am 100% certain that I will marry Jeff. Life is scary, but thinking about tackling life with him makes it seem less scary.
Looking back at the last 25 years (really 20 because I don't think I have memories before 5) I feel very happy. I have always known who I am and been able to make decisions for myself and not be influenced too much by others. I never really cared if people thought I was weird or nerdy. I am who I am and happy to be me. I have to say this is one of the things I always loved about myself (oh gosh this post is turning into an "I love myself" post). I saw so many people try to please others, try to be people they aren't, it was just nice not having to feel like i needed to do that. I'm not saying I don't have flaws, everyone does. For example I always struggled with worrying and being anxious about things. It was really hard for me to just let things happen, I was always thinking about what people said, picking it apart. I've gotten much better as I've gotten older. Yoga helps a lot with anxiety.
Despite the fact that I'm not married yet like I thought I would be (am I crazy?!), I have accomplished some awesome things. I never ever thought I would be a business owner, it wasn't even close to being in the plan, which makes it even more crazy. I am so proud of where my business has gone and can't wait to see where it goes. I am also excited to that I'll have a graduate degree by December and hopefully a job not long after.
Bring it on 25!